I wonder... Does everyone handle hurt the same way I do?
Not just your every-day sort of hurt. A very-deep hurt. A hurt received from someone by whom you would never expect to be purposely hurt...over-and-over again.
Hurt by a person that should be one you could go to to receive comfort when you are hurt elsewhere.
A person that was put in charge of your place of refuge and refreshment.
A hurt so bad that you have to leave the place where you have found spiritual help and solace since you were a child. A place that you have to leave before you find it impossible to forgive...again...again...
I know it's not the place that really helps me, it's the Helper that meets me there.
And so, I, and the precious husband God gave me, seek for a new house of worship, a place without the hindrance of hurt feelings to bask again in that refreshment. Solace. Peace.
And back again I go to my question: Does everyone handle hurt the same way I do?
Do they vacillate between hurt/ shock/ anger/ talk/ pull-inside-themselves-and-seek-comfort stages? Then do they get to the With God's help I will beat this and I will be better for it stage? The I am Amazed stage... only to wake up the next morning in the hurt/shock stage again?
Well, Dear Diary, guess which stage I'm in today? The pull-inside-myself-and-seek-comfort stage.
It's a good place in this journey because this is the stage where I'm learning so much. I'm learning I am not alone in this. I'm learning that I am actually growing through this. I will be a stronger person because of this and hopefully I can help someone else through this same kind of hurt some day with real empathy and gratitude for the Help I have received. I am finding great peace when I rest in God and take time out to enjoy His beautiful creation while in this stage.
And just one more thing Dear Diary, I could suspend myself above all my troubles in one of these beautiful, cuddly, hanging chairs. This is my birthday month and the daisy chair is my favorite ... just in case anyone asks...hint, hint, hint. : )
Not just your every-day sort of hurt. A very-deep hurt. A hurt received from someone by whom you would never expect to be purposely hurt...over-and-over again.
Hurt by a person that should be one you could go to to receive comfort when you are hurt elsewhere.
A person that was put in charge of your place of refuge and refreshment.
A hurt so bad that you have to leave the place where you have found spiritual help and solace since you were a child. A place that you have to leave before you find it impossible to forgive...again...again...
I know it's not the place that really helps me, it's the Helper that meets me there.
And so, I, and the precious husband God gave me, seek for a new house of worship, a place without the hindrance of hurt feelings to bask again in that refreshment. Solace. Peace.
And back again I go to my question: Does everyone handle hurt the same way I do?
Do they vacillate between hurt/ shock/ anger/ talk/ pull-inside-themselves-and-seek-comfort stages? Then do they get to the With God's help I will beat this and I will be better for it stage? The I am Amazed stage... only to wake up the next morning in the hurt/shock stage again?
Well, Dear Diary, guess which stage I'm in today? The pull-inside-myself-and-seek-comfort stage.
It's a good place in this journey because this is the stage where I'm learning so much. I'm learning I am not alone in this. I'm learning that I am actually growing through this. I will be a stronger person because of this and hopefully I can help someone else through this same kind of hurt some day with real empathy and gratitude for the Help I have received. I am finding great peace when I rest in God and take time out to enjoy His beautiful creation while in this stage.
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